Wellness With Her Club

Today I was sad, 

Not in the way that I wanted to give up, 

But in the way I knew I just had…

To do what I’d wanted to do all along. 

Why did the world make us feel like we had a price to pay? 

Why did it make us feel like it cost to breathe? 

Why did it make us feel like we didn’t have any value to offer,

If we didn’t cough up more than a dollar? 

I have wanted to live in oblivion for so long 

Traveling as far as what I thought was my peripheral could let me. 

Drugs and narcotics they term as substances. 

Substances huh? 

Then why do I feel emptier than I did? 

Watching my innocence slip out of my core. 

“Now you know. 

Now you know.

Now you fucking know.” 

This is the price you pay for exploring the depths.

They welcome me. 

“Child, we’ve been waiting.

We’ve been waiting for you to see us.”

“I don’t want to live like this, I just want to be knocked out, back into the bliss I once knew as home.”

“Oh but child, you asked, you asked ever so gently for more. This is it.”